Back to writing & why it's always worth it
It's only been a month or so since I last worked on my writing projects. And the reason why is I wanted to be fully present for my daughter settling into nursery school. So, I pressed pause.
And yet, even though it's been only a few weeks, it feels like years and years have gone by in the blink of an eye.
So much has happened — transitioning into nursery school has been such a huge shift for us. With new rhythms, routines, big emotions, very little sleep...
...I feel like every inch of me has reshaped into a new entity that works, thinks, and breathes exclusively for the purpose of accommodating this change.
In the meantime, I'm afraid I forgot how to sit down and write.
Look, I knew it wouldn't be easy to come back to the empty page. To the writing process. It never is.
Whenever I take a break from writing things down — for whatever reason — my brain quickly clogs with thoughts and feelings that don't know how to make sense of themselves. Feelings, big and small. Thoughts, menial and deeply meaningful. All jumbled and tangled into a fuzzy, woolly, shapeless bundle. Because it's through writing that I tidy up inside. It's through the simple choice of carving out space and time to reconnect with what is happening within and without that I generate fuel for clarity and a sense of groundedness in everyday life.
But this past month we've been travelling at full speed. And I don't quite know what I think or feel anymore.
This morning, Pier is taking Francesca to nursery and I'm at home, pressing furiously on the brakes. It's time to slow down.
In Italy, we say that riding a bicycle is something you never forget. You just pick it up at any point along the road and your body remembers — how to swing your leg over the saddle, how to settle your bum on it as comfortably as humanly possible, when to push the pedal with your right foot not a split second before your body reaches perfect balance — in unison with its new metal organ.
I wish it were that easy with writing too! Well, it isn't. But one thing I know for sure — it's always worth it.
Wishing you a wonderful Monday,
Sinù xx
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